Thursday, October 13, 2011

Thriller at covey

Thriller by Dance Odyssey was so good last night. Scott and i took the girls and we all had a blast.
I will post pictures when I get them off my cell phone. If you have a chance to go, you should all go check it out. Definately worth the money.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Scott's Successful Bow Hunt 2011

Scott was so excited to get his first deer with a bow this year. He left early in the morning at about 5:00 a.m. He decided to go up Provo Canyon and stay close to home. As he was driving up the mountain a truck stopped in front of Him, he could not figure out what he was stopping for till he saw 5 Bucks crossing in front of his truck. It was not quite light enough yet to shoot so he watched them go up the mountain a bit. Light hit and he saw exactly where they were all hiding. he got out to go  see them and one stepped out and looked right at him so he took the shot. he was killed instantly. We are looking forward to getting the jerky we eat all year.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

granby vacation

i thought I better post a few vacation pics for those of you who do not get on facebook. my poor blog gets neglected anymore. We had a fun relaxing time in Granby Colorado. We stayed at my parents condo time share, and did alot of fun things. these are part one of my pics. We also went horseback riding too. Ill get to those in a bit.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Am I on earth anymore?

Have I dropped off the face of the Earth? I am sure some of you are probably thinking that I have.
between work, kids, more work and play, I think I forgot that I even had a blog I was suppose to be writing in.
 It is competition time around our house which means Dance competitions almost every weekend till the end of May. It has also been dance picture season which took up all my March. Every time I do a shoot I get so excited and this years dance pictures were so much fun. I was thrilled that Denna allowed me to not only do competition teams this year but the entire studio.
The girls have been getting ready for the summer dance workshop they do every year. Word must have spread about how fun it was last year because they have a ton of sign ups.
If you missed it last year, Denna had them come do the number they choreographed for the youngest hip hop group at the studio and that group will be performing it at the recital this spring.
Want to sign your kids up? boys or girls here is the info.

I am so proud of them. If you missed our family gangster shoot, go check it out on my facebook page.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I want to win this!
Isnt it so stinkin darling.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

life's little lessons Learned ( getting honest with myself)

Most of us are aware that we are put here on earth to be tested, if this life is a test than I fear greatly that I am flunking out. We are being tested on how we interact with others, what kind of people we are, how good of parents we are, the service we do for others and the list goes on. Am I making the grade? Maybe a D+ at that.
Interaction with others-hmmm I think I am nice to everyone. At least I try to be. I Genuinely want to be friends with everyone and I absolutely hate it if someone does not like me....which I am sure there are a few. I know I have a strong personality.And when I find a great friend they are always one for life. It is what makes me ..well me. This was not always the case. There was a time I would never speak my mind and now my mind pays way to many visits to my mouth. Does that mean I am getting old?  I was told to stop letting people walk all over me and bam! Mind to mouth happens. It is not intended to offend only release the 20 million thoughts that I need to release to make my mind a happy healthy place to live. My husband is always telling me don't say that or you crossed the line. When I think to myself " I did not think what I just wrote or said was bad." So lesson learned- Everyone interprets things differently so be careful what you say.
what kind of a person am I?- I think I am kind, giving,over achieving & friendly person. But I am also loud, unforgiving at times, take way too much offense to things,self criticizing and can be very short with my family because my plate is so full. Which list is bigger the good or the bad? I am sure I left a lot out. What kills me is we all have the good the bad and the ugly, so why is it that some people think they are better than others? Why because I live here and not there am I not worth taking the time to get to know?It was like a light bulb moment for me. I have been teaching my children that they must be liked, they must have lots of friends, when in all actuality WHO Cares!!!  Who cares if the girl with the cutest clothes likes them, who cares if someone does not want to play with them at recess. NO One person is better than another. This is what I should have been teaching them as their parent. Yes I have taught them we be kind to everyone no matter what, but I was also forcing them to be someone i thought they should be perfect,popular, kind,giving. I never stopped to think they might have a few things on that not so perfect side too. My girls are sweet, they are honest with me- even when they don't want to be, they have darling personalities and I don't care who likes them, all I care about is if they are being who they truly are and if that person is a good person than they will draw in the right friends, they will have self pride and they will be better rounded individuals.I love all there friends. I think I got off track on teaching them the importance of treating everyone with respect even though I believe they do. So lesson learned- Let your kids be who they are, teach them a righteous way to live and don't expect them to be any better than we are.
I really try to be a good parent, I try to teach them right from wrong but I also am not always the greatest example to them, If a girlfriend calls to gossip I am quick to want to listen, but yet my words to them are never gossip about anyone it gets you into trouble. So why do we as humans love to hear it, why do we find it necessary?I don't want gossip to be a part of my life. So I too am like a child needing to hear it once in a while. I have found myself telling my girls to say little white lies if it protects them, till my daughter says no mom I cant say that that would be lying....ok slap in face parenting job- FAIL! Or having my kids come to me with exciting news from their day and I say I am working I will talk to you in a bit. Do you think that news will be as exciting to them when I am ready? You all are going to read this and think what kind of Mother is she? I do good things too. I am very supportive of them, I give them and show them love daily, and do teach them gospel don't hate me fully. Lesson learned- they are always watching, always wanting your acceptance and always wanting your attention and you know what they deserve it! We only have our kids with us for a short while.
 Service- Aren't I covered if I offer a free photoshoot a year or make a family dinner in the ward maybe twice a year, Aren't I covered if I have put more hours in for the school PTA than what I have time for? Answer- NO! When Is the last time I did something nice for someone just to do it, when is the last time I went to ward service day and cancelled my work, whens the last time I went visiting teaching? Please don't answer that Melissa!This is one area I know I need to work on. I pray every night.. and please let me be of service today. How many promptings am I missing? Lesson learned- serve others your children will than learn of it's importance and be more willing to serve. Even if it is cleaning there room, I will takie it!

So i have babbled and I am not sure if anyone actually made it through this entire post but I needed this. To get real with myself. I hate fake! I hate  it when people pretend to be one way and than are the other. I am who I am good, bad and ugly. My girls are who they are and I am going to accept them no matter what.I tell them if you want to have people be nice to you than you need to be nice yourself. And I plan on taking my own advice.I plan on being a little nicer to my family.After all they deserve the best of me.they are who I will spend eternity with. And I am not going to worry anymore about what others think of me or my family because We are all human and none of us are better than anyone else. Scott will be glad to hear that because what others think of me has consumed my thoughts. So what if someone doesn't come back to me to do their hair, there are others that do still come, who cares if people do not like my photography... I love it! And who cares if they think We don't dress high fashion. We pay to live day by day and give our children the necessities in life. who cares if all the group of ladies exclude me from a conversation, I have fabulous friends who I love to chat with and we have great phone and laughs together. And that is getting Honest with myself.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Mental anxiety in children ( venting my thoughts)

Our family has been dealing with some very tough issues lately. Not only do I have anxiety and have had it for Years, I have noticed some of the same tendancies in my girls for the last year or so. It was not till the last month or so that it became apparent that it has taken over their lives. One of the girls is currently having to see a therapist and we are not making too much progress.Hours of crying at nights and trying to relieve some stress. What makes it worse are the girls at school that cause so much trouble for them it is rediculous. I have a few that talk to me so disrespectfully on facebook etc. that it makes me wonder how they talk to their own parents
 If there getting along its all good but the minute they fight the entire 5th grade is put against... you guessed it them. A set of twin boys actually threw grapes at them in the cafeteria while the other girls just laughed. It seriously reminds me of the movie Mean girls with Lindsey Lohan. I just keep telling the girls you be the Nice popular not the bratty ones.They tell me if your nice around those girls you will never be popular. This is 5th grade!!! What the?????? Who cares? They are so stinkin cute they do not need any of that.
There is much stress over school and school work. My girls have always been at the very top of the class coming home with straight 4's which is above grade level. One is now 2's and three's..which is not bad mind you, but I have seen how it is affecting their school work.One doesn't even think she is smart anymore because she blacks out in math.
So the question is what do I do as a mother? I cannot home school I am not smart enough .lol. I do not want to teach my kids to escape their problems either. We will continue to seek therapy. i am done talking to other kids parents it gets us nowhere and I hate confrontations they actually give me anxiety. Prayer has been what I am turning too.
 It is so hard to see your children suffer. It is so hard to think I may have caused a lot of their fears and anxieties as well. While Scott was working in Nevada for two years I would lock us all in my room and put a chair behind the door. This was my anxiety coming through. What did that teach my children at such a young age? to be afraid of the world. I hate it that I did that! I have since learned how to control my anxiety and fear holds no place currently for me, but my sweet girls have it and it is ripping our hearts into pieces for them.
To hear a child say "I hate the world it is evil" , " why do we even have to have school or why do we even need friends?", " I wish I could just die and never have these problems", these words should never be heard from an 11 year old. I really hope therapy works and I more than hope that parents teach their children to love one another.I know kids will be kids and kids are cruel, But there has got to be something wrong with todays society for it to start so young. I never ever remember elementary school being a stressful time in my life as it has been for my children.
What kills me is that my girls have so much going for them and they do not even see it anymore. Thank goodness we do have the few dance teachers, school teachers and us of course Scott and I to remind them of their self worth or I am afraid what the consequences may be. Especially when they say they would rather be dead.
I always thought those girls would have it easy. Everyone seemed to like them where ever they went. Until this last year.It reminds me of a rumor started about me in High school that ruined one year of it for me. But that was 11th grade not grade school.
So i will continue on this road of seeking after the Lords help in knowing what is the right thing to do. Nothing is more important to me than the mental health of my family.
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